Still Alive

It recently hit me that my last blog entry is about a year old. At the very least, I thought I’d offer an update. I’m still alive, still writing, albeit at a much slower pace. 2014 and the beginning of 2015 handed my little family some big changes. We went from a house on a desert mountain, to an RV in the forest, to a little house in the city. My job changed in some great ways, and I’ve been enjoying the challenge.

But there’s a downside to change, too.

My family lost two members, and we very nearly lost a third. The first loss was a gentle, old Amazon parrot we adopted knowing we were in for a hospice situation. After a long stretch of apparent improvement, one morning, the little guy just stopped breathing. The second loss was our wonderful Shepherd, who had been with my husband and I since before we were married. Cancer took him on Valentines Day, within weeks of his diagnosis. And the almost-loss was our Cocker Spaniel, our accidental second dog. She, an abandoned puppy-mill mom, fell sick for months, lost a third of her body weight, and spent way too many nights in the hospital. She is finally beginning to pull through, and while I can still see far too many of her ribs, she’s actually wagging her tail again.

I know to many people these are just animals, but I don’t draw much of a line between species. To me, family is family, and mine feels decimated. So that’s part of the reason I’ve been a bit silent online. I always hesitate to share personal bad news for fear of bringing people down, when I imagine it’s the last thing anyone needs. But the truth is I’ve had little energy due to a patch of depression steered very much by the losses and illnesses of some creatures I love.

I thought about sharing some of their stories and photos with you, because these (mostly) speechless sweethearts amaze and inspire me every day. But first, I think it’s important to get caught up on projects. Plus I still get a little teary when I think about the ones I lost.

Anyway, don’t give up on me just yet. And thank you for being out there!